| The autobiography of Eric Clapton is a recap of the intense, and sometimes disoriented, journey to self realization for one of the most renowned guitar players of all time. Clapton, is a brutally honest look at the musician’s life long struggle for an identity; which is only able to be discovered through his music. As with most rock legends, his story is one of personal tragedy doused with drugs and alcohol. Clapton only seems to be at ease when he is absorbed in his music; his one outlet from the troubles and insecurities that surround him. Eventually, through the help of faith, friends and his music, he is able to discover his true potential, both as a musician and a person. It is with this help, that he has also been able to celebrate over 20 years of sobriety. Eric Patrick Clapton was raised in the small town of Ripley in the South of England. His struggle with identity originated when he was only 7 years old. It is at this tender age that he discovered the couple believed to be his parents, were actually his grandmother and step-grandfather. This realization both hurt, and confused the young Clapton, leading him to question many assumed truths in his early life. Although he looked up to his grandparents as if they were his actual parents, he couldn’t help but doubt himself as to why his real parents were not around. His real mother would occasionally show up unannounced throughout his adolescent years, while his father, Eric finds out, is actually a married Canadian airman still living in Ontario. School for Eric, was viewed more as a forced requirement, than an event to look forward to. Without a true group of friends with which to align himself at school, Clapton begins to turn to music as his outlet and companion. As he begins to master his craft, he simultaneously gains more popularity with the music scene in Southern England. This proves to be an uneasy situation for Eric. Although he wants desperately to be accepted by his peers, he hates the attention that begins to shift to him when he performs (till this day, he still struggles with an overwhelming shyness). He begins to put all his focus into emulating the great musical influences in his life, such as Robert Johnson and B.B. King. His endless dedication to hard work in pursuing his dream is an inspirational lesson for anyone who is truly passionate about mastering a craft.
The book also chronicles the interesting dynamic between Clapton’s success in his career, and his ever spiraling love life. It seems that the more success he enjoys in his music, the more dysfunctional his love life becomes. This is no doubt, in part, due to the temptations that come along with traveling on the road in a rock band. At one point in his life, Clapton finds himself pursuing the wife of George Harrison, while he himself is a married man. He eventually is successful in stealing away his good friend Harrison’s wife. Oddly enough, Harrison and Clapton are able to remain friends. Ultimately Clapton comes to the conclusion that in order for him to find happiness in love, he must first find happiness and confidence in himself.
Although the book deals with many situations of the stereotypical “sex, drugs, and rock and roll” lifestyle, the personal tragedies are what I found most compelling. In one instance, Clapton narrowly escapes death in a helicopter accident by deciding to board a different chopper. His good friend and fellow guitar great Stevie Ray Vaughn was not so lucky. Eric has a difficult time mourning the loss of his close friend and begins to consume more alcohol than he was already drinking. Nothing, however, could brace Eric for the biggest tragedy in his life. Less than a year after the death of Stevie Ray Vaughn in 1990, Clapton received the most heart wrenching call of his life. His ex-wife was hysterically screaming that Conor, their 4 year old son, was dead. Conor had accidentally fallen out of a 53rd story window in a friends New York City apartment. Eric was inconsolable. The grief he faced became the inspiration for the Grammy award winning song “Tears in Heaven”. This terrible heartbreak was an early test of his recently found sobriety. Eric managed to keep himself from reverting to drinking. Weeks later, at an AA meeting, Eric was approached by a woman who had just heard his tragic story. She informed him that he had taken away her last excuse to drink. “I’ve always had this little corner of my mind which held the excuse that, if anything were to happen to my kids, then I’d be justified in getting drunk. You’ve shown me that’s not true.”
Ultimately, Clapton: The Autobiography is an intimate look into the life of Eric Clapton. It addresses his personal shortcomings and struggles more than it shares a behind the scenes look at music industry. Although I didn’t know how personal the book would get when I began to read it; I was pleasantly surprised by the candidness with which Clapton speaks. I began to understand that writing this book was more therapeutic in nature for Clapton, than it was to generate money. It was a refreshingly novel way to approach an autobiography. I would strongly recommend this book to anyone who is interested in knowing more, not only about the music scene of the 60s, 70s, and 80s, but about Eric Clapton the father, husband, and friend. |